looking back

since I've made a promise to post more so now I wanna keep that promise and prove it. I have been planning to make a post from a far distant day. but yeah you have to understand me and my laziness. can't help it. okay so here's the thing. last monday, when I was sitting back in the dinner table while enjoying a cup of tea (like-usual), my sister came over and joined me do the sitt-back-and-relax-before-bed-time thingies. she brought a stack of old photo albums with her. since she will getting married in March so she wanted to select a multiple photos for slide show that will be display at her wedding. and I offered myself to help her pick and choose the photos that look good. it was quite fun you know to look at those old photos. to look back into the past for a while. to see what happens at that time. to brings all the memories. it was quite weird too to see what had happend before I was exist and born into this world.

I was intrigued when I saw the photos of my sister when she was still a little girl. it was an interesting photos because it took a place in Washington D.C. I didn't mean to brag but in fact I was born in that city. fyi, my family used to live there for a while. and yeah I am so jealous with my sister because even though she was still a little at that time at least she could enjoy being there and have fond memories, while me on the other hand was a baby and didn't even remember anything. one thing that made me even more jealous is when I saw the photo of her wearing a fabulous coat and the cute white boots with a white delicate snow in the background.  envy much? aaah I wish I was in her position. hopefully someday I will have a chance to visit my hometown.

page after page, I found the photos of my mom and my dad when they was still young. I saw the photos of my dad with his long hair. I saw my mother with vintage outfit and she used to looks slim. it was quite odd to saw them like that. I wonder if only they never had met, they will never establish love together and be united. and that means I will never be be born in this world. or maybe I will but I may not be in a position as I am now. and it will be a very different story. I don't know. I will never know. what a mystery! yes life is full of mystery which we always try and fight hard to reveal it.

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okay so talk about the past and the mystery around it, the past is like foreign country, you know? they do things differently there. sometimes I like to think and asked myself why I do this thing or that thing in the past.  sometimes I can't even understand why I'm doing some of things I did in the past. yes what has happened in the past with the present is completely different, but it still have a relation. what we need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked out together to bring to you this very moment. what has happened in the past is exactly the path that you chose in the past. so no need to regret. yes we do have to go ahead to the future without ever thinking to look back and regret it. but there's nothing wrong to look back for a moment to make it as a lesson for the present and learn from it. we do have to know the past to understand the present, right?