random feeling

hello again stranger. I don't have anything to do now. so I'm thinking to give a post in this blog. actually I have some paperwork to do, but I'm kinda stuck at this time. so I decided to give myself a rest for a while. and now I'm feeling kinda bored. since earlier I'd just roll over in my bed and hiding under the blanket (*boredom alert). I think I need to find something to keep me busy, like my paperwork maybe? aaarggh nooo. it just makes my head hurt more and broken straight away. for now let's not think about it

courtesy of Lala Bohang

at the last post I already told you that my dad wanna come to my dorm and see me. he really came to see mee yesterday. turns out he's not alone, he's with my mom. they have just attended the wedding of a relative. at that time we just stayed in my room and have some good talk. they only stayed for few hours and left. but I was so happy to see them. when I saw them, I felt relief. I felt as if there's a bright light emitting me. I felt as if all of my burden lost instantly. and when they left, I felt as if my world back to black again. to much indeed, but it's true. after they left I try to make myself bussy by doing my paper work. I don't know why but at that time I felt so excited. my paper work suddenly turned into something interesting. and last night, when I went to bed and want to close my eyes to sleep, suddenly a drop of tears running down in my cheek. yeah I burst into tears until finally I fell asleep.

lately I've been feeling kinda down. I felt like sinking to the bottom of the sea and couldn't go back to a place where I used to be. I have no idea why I'm being so sensitive like this. I guess I'm just miss my family so damn much. it's normal, rite? I'm pretty sure I'm gonna back as usual soon. just hope for the best for me. 

courtesy of Lala Bohang

usually when I feel down like that, I always try to memorize all of his encouragement words. It always got me rise up again. I just need to cheer up right now. because everything is going to be okay. 

so cheer up everybody. turn the frown upside down :(: everyday may not be good, but there's something good in everyday :D

  

"Don't let one cloud obliterate the whole sky"

-Anaïs Nin

Melita Disi Triavera♥